Love or Lust

I am shredded inside
From this love or lust
Whatever it is
That has engulfed
My body
My heart
My soul
And has made me feel ill
All the day
I could die from the aching
I want him so badly
But he is everywhere
Except in my arms
Where he is needed the most
To make me feel like
I still want to live
I still have some worth
In this world
Which as of now
Is a worth
I cannot find
Because I am lonely
And only this man
Is on my mind

©Chikara 1986