My Mama

My Mama
She doesn't know
What's been going on
She doesn't know
My life at all
She doesn't hear
What they've been saying
Her baby's gonna be
Strong and tall

My Papa
He doesn't know
What's been going on
He's been hoping
And growing big dreams
He doesn't see
All that's been happening
He'll be falling apart
At the seams

I've been lying so long
That now when I really need them
My family doesn't know
Who I am, who I love
What I've done, where I go
They don't hear
They don't see
The convulsing truths
Inside of me
They just don't know

Why have I lied so long?

<I>Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my sould to keep
If I should die before I wake
I pray the Lord my sould to take</I>

My Mama
Her heart will be aching
My Papa
His dreams will be breaking
My family
Their checks cannot handle
My bills
For all the pills I'll be taking

As they lie there awash in sleep
My muffled cries of pain so deep
Show Your mercy, my parent's sake
Take me now before they wake

My Mama
My Papa
Why have I lied so long?

©Chikara 1992